It feels

like this past week has been a dream..


I'm just ready to wake up from it now.



But I know it isn't and I know I can't wake up and just fix everything that went wrong this week.. from my others peoples pain going to my own. Everything happens for a reason, right? And everything right will just fall into place.. As I've heard hah.. for me.. everything has just been going in such different directions this week. I wouldn't even know where to start. I mean of course I've had plenty of good moments this week, no doubt.. but all those moments went by so quickly.. and right now I can only see what went wrong this week.. I know I shouldn't and I don't want to.. but I just can't stop. But the thing is, I don't want to stop thinking about it.. I don't want to forget any of the memories that have been replaying in my head the past couple days. I feel it all slowly slipping through my fingers or disappearing right before my eyes. I don't want to lose these memories and I wish more could be made. I've been finding myself getting really upset at least once a day.. and even start tearing up sometimes ha. I still can't believe it. I've been taught so much from this, given so much advice to this and each time I get really.. emotional? Because it's such a touchy subject.. everytime I'm done talking about it.. I find so many more positive things about you.. ha yeah, it's a person.. who woulda guess.. haaaaaaaaa. Sometimes reading what you have to say makes my heart drop to my stomach.. I can't help to believe that it's not over. It's like I just wanna get my phone and make that call.. or make that trip.. or just go out of my way to do something.. I would in a heartbeat.. but.. Idk. I just want this to be over and just start over.


I want to wake up.
"I'm tryna reach you, I can almost feel you, you're nearly here and then... you disappear."



_Alyssa Nicole Sacramento.