I'm in

DENIAL


Hahhhhh.. forreal though. I really didn't think so.. because I thought I had my mind straight.. but really? When do I ever have my mind straight.. when does anyone?! Aha. I guess I just had to hear it from one of my closest friends that I am. I'm so stubborn that I don't see the good things that I have right in front of my face.. whether it be a person or an activity or whatever. My constant standings on being "right" all the time are causing me to think otherwise of the things that really are right.. or at least make sense. For the past couple of months I've been so narrow-minded that I'm beggining to shut out other peoples imput, even for those I care about the most. I know for a fact that I'm not angry or pissed off most of the time.. it's just that I'm scared. Just scared of being hurt.. that's pretty much it. Haha. As I was telling someone last night.. I'm just tired of putting myself out there (even I don't sometimes ha), and then getting shut down. But hey, that's life nahmeaaannn?! Yeaahh.. just gotta DEAL. But if you don't want me to beat around the bush anymore, all I really am is... FUCKING LONELY hahahahah. It's true, but hey whatevaaaaa ;D



_Lyss!