500DOS

As cheesy as this might sound, I think God really wanted me to see this movie. HAH. I think it was good for me to see it alone.. LAME well not really.. I just wasn't sitting riiiightttt next my sister and her friends. Honestly, just thinking about the whole movie makes my heart drop yet go crazy at the same time.. Thanks to Joseph Gordon-Levitt LOL.. jk not to mention Zooey DeChanel is sucha beauty! I wish I looked like her. It was kind of gay.. but I was smiling through the whole movie.. except the parts where I was silently crying to myself HAHA oh Lord. I can't explain how it makes me feel.. but it really made me feel hopeful. These past couple of months have been so rough on me, emotionally.. some of you may know ha. But yeah, Right now.. I feel happy, yet I feel my heart down in my stomach like I'm about to cry HA. But.. these past couple of days have been like this haha. Fuck.. sorry.. I can barely see the screen right now cause I'm crying again. I don't know what these tears are anymore.. emo hahahaha! Alright.. I can see better. During the whole movie I was thinking of something.. maybe a person.. heh. Ooo.. but of course.. it's meant for you to think of the special someone or the future DGGQ lol. No one knows (: But anyways.. I'm not gonna spoil anything but there's this part of the end.. where it has the numbers 225 behind JGL.. I don't know why I noticed but I just did.. and those happen to be the numbers of my birthday! Weird right? Coicidence.. yeah hah oh well I noticed it! I just want people to watch it.. of course it's going to be heartbreaking because it sure as hell broke mine at some of the parts.. It's weird cause I related to it so much.. pretty much most of it! At the end there's a spot that is suppose to be all happy and gives JGL closure.. of course I want to feel that closure and something that happens at the part. But as of now.. I can't see it happen.. I don't want to let it go.. yet.. I'm not sure. I don't want to let my memories go.. it's just so hard. I can't help but to think about it everyday. I'm hanging in there so much better though. Thanks to my friends for just chillin with me.. or talking to me when I feel like venting or listening to me brag about how good of a guy you are haha. (500) Days of Summer gave me hope.. I hope everyone whose struggling right now gets a chance to watch it (:

(731) on Tuesday.. shit.
PS I painted you something today.. haaaa..


_Alyssa