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Maaan oh Manowitts.


Ew hahah. Anywho.. wow. Today was probably one of my favorite days this summer. No joke. Like the OG girls group all together.. minus freaking Cara 'cause her smart-ass is at freaking UCLA for a 10-day Medical Program! Jeeez louise. But anywho. 'Twas me, Meg, Gabs and Lo. Brought back so many memories of just us hanging out. I feel as if I'm neglecting them.. never asking them to chill or not even taking the time to talk to them. And I'd really like to apologize for it =/ I hate that I did that, 'cause I can see we've missed out on each other for this past Sophmore year.. me barely chillin' or taking the time to talk to them. Uggghh.. But! That's going to change (: My trust with them is really, still the same. My connection with them is undescribable haha. I can really be myself around them and feel I can still tell them things and they won't say one word. I love it! (: I can already tell they think or thought I've changed.. maybe not even in a good way =/ I think I went through a "cool" phase.. fucking bullshit. Hahah I'm no one compared to these girls.. they're too amazing. But probably one of my favorite times of today was talking to Gabby (: wow.. this is all homo sounding.. HAHA but really. I don't know. We're really going through the same stuff right now and the fact that we couldn't help each other or give each other advice was hilarious because it's all the same shit.. LITERALLY. I guess it's just comforting to know I'm not alone in this. No one in the world is alone in certain situations. I really need to instill that in my head because the certain emotions I've been feeling are no bueno.. and are basically for no reason. Mmm idk. From now on.. I'm gonna try to keep my neglect to these girls plus Cara! on the low.. MAAAJOR. I need them for the rest of high school.. It'll be nothing without them (:



PS I've been listening to Erased by Chris Brown for the whole day.. I can't stop hahaha.. I mean it's sad.. but really it makes me feel better I think! HAHA



"C'monnn.. Can't you see? I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve"



_Alyssa