I wrote

a super long letter.. but I'm pretty much comtemplating if I should give it/send it. God even knows how I'll get it to that person because of the fact I can't drive HAHAH. But as of now.. I think I want to. Why not take a chance right? I don't know maybe this will be mistake number 25345641 written in my book.. but I'd like to think that this might relieve a lot of my... hmm I don't know what to call it.. but yeah! Maybe get a lot of weight off my shoulders? So many words left unsaid and so many misunderstandings.. like every other conversation I have with someone hahaha. Because I can't talk! -___- but when pen comes to paper I know exactly what to do. But come on, it's me.. I'm the definition of chickenshit hahah.. pretty sad but it's true. But this is probably the first time I've felt like this so.. maybe it's okay to be trippin'. Ehhh I don't know. I really want the person to get my letter.. I wrote it at 3 in the damn morning hahaha. Mmm Im babbling! Christina rubbed off on me hahahahah.




I love this song! (: and RIP to her brother MICHAEL JACKSON =[[

_Alyssa

BELIEVE

Ohmygoodness! (:




"Whatever comes our way we'll see it through.."



_Alyssa

Mmhhmmm

Today was actually really good! Starts off with me and Lo arriving at Harkin's and seeing Transfomer's 2 was freaking sold out! Yeah =[ So we go to Tati's to meet up with Sybil and Tats to discuss our master plan. We get all scared and go frantic and start calling people like crazy hahah. Lo gets a ticket from Glen.. pero, me an Sybil had no luck =[ So it was 9:30 and we head over to Harkin's and me and Sybil make our way up and down the line -_____- we run into some friends and JMar finds Sybil a ticket.. so I'm the only one stuck without one.. of course! HAHA So we make our rounds again and after about going up it a million times.. I yell out "One more ticket! PLEASE!" And I start to lose hope and walk away but someone screams... WEHAVEONE! and I go insane and of course buy it from them for 10 bucks hahah. So me and Sybil feel all accomplished and happily go into the theater (: We go into one theater.. but Tati's brother saved us seats in another one so we moved to that one. We all got hungry so me and Xtines go and get snacks for everyone. We got curious and went to see what theater everyone was it hahaha so we looked and found a whole messa people it was pretty interesting! But yeah.. got our snacks. Bump into Mr. Flores and he decided to tag along before the previews start and eat all my popcorn -___- jk it was freaking huggeee. But yeah, it's always good talking to him because he never gives me bullshit answers even if it hurts a lot.. like it did! HA but yeah.. Always good talking to Javier. Mmm the movie then finally started! IT WAS SO GOOD! From beginning to end I was never ever bored. Ahhh I can't get over it (: Shia was great in this one hahah.. aww fool's so sweet.. always holdin' Meagan's hand and what not awww! I'm jealous.. they made me cry hahahaha! Mmm new Autobots are tight! Yeeee! Idk I don't wanna spoil anything but yeah GO WATCH IT! So we can have discussions ;D Aha. Mmm yeaup.. saw a whole buncha people and it was great seeing them! Mm some.. maybe one hah.. eh still hard/weird. Whatev.. What can I do if I'm not met half way right? Hahhhh WHATEVER! Gooodnighttttt! :D





_Lyss

I can't

sleep.. HAHA This is like every single one of my posts now. But it's true.. my sleeping schedule is messed up to the max. Mm well.. no doubt.. this was a tough week.. but hey, start of a brand new one right? I'm leaving to Alaska on Saturday though =[ But I'm pretty excited.. It'll clear my head a bit and hopefully put some sense into it too! Mm tonight feels different.. maybe it's 'cause that video Josh sent me hahahahah. (look up 'Skype Laughter Chain') The most I've laughed in forever!! HAHAH I loved it. I'm actually pretty okay right now.

a lees s uh h : eat a penis you gay boy!

a lees s uh h : hahahaha

a lees s uh h : (:

buggyboi92 : hahaha wtfff

buggyboi92 : you eat a penis

buggyboi92 : i'm not gay

The best love/hate relationship on the face of the planet. Sometimes he almost makes me cry hahah


Indirectly direct: Hey, learn from your twin.


"If it's corny, or if it's going to ruin your outfit, you don't have to wear it. "
"I like corny. I'm looking for corny in my life"
-The Holiday




_Alyssa

NEW BOY

in my life (:His name is Derrick! He just turned one and he just stole my heart.. hahahaha. Ahh but really. He's the cutest, sweetest baby in the world ohhh mah gahts! His laugh is so adorable and I know for a fact that he loves me back ;D Agghhh even my mom loves him, which is a plus.. HAHAHA dude okay I'm done. But really I love himmmm! He's so cuuuteee. I was taking care of him and I set him down in the kitchen 'cause he's freaking heavy so I put him down to stretch my arms and looking away from him for like 5 seconds and then looking back I see him trying to open the Corona box lol. So I had to take a picture! Ahahah aw.. (: Blehhh I miss YOU...r mom! Hahahehehahohoho... fail.. ha



_Lyss

More sleepless nights

보고싶어요





I know.. I would HAHAHAH.


My sister called me a bitch tonight... =[ HAHA yeah, I guess I needed to hear that.



_Lysss

Finally

A good, relaxing day out.


I was a little grumpy when I woke up this morning due to my lack of sleep.. just like every other day for these past couple of days 'cause of some things.. like all nighters, texting, thinking, and other things ha. But yeah, woke up to HSM3 so I guess it made up for it ;D Ahah of course. But yeah.. finally got up out of my sleeping bag in my brothers room 'cause my sister took up my whole bed -______- so I just parked it on the floor for the night. But anyways.. got up went on the computer.. browsed for a bit. I was thinking about 'On Bended Knee' for the whole night because Joe and EmerJ sang it last night at Lindsey's.. which was really fun! but kinda made me sad because hah.. aww =[ BUT yeah so I found the sheet music and printed it out and I'm planning to learn it this weekend-next week! Probably longer but whatevs haha. Then I go back into my brothers room and get my phone and seeing a funny text from George hahahah of course and then from Kev asking what I was doing and I said nothing. So he calls back and asks if I want to go get some food. So I get ready and Kev, Mr. Driver, picks me up and we go to Panera and see Kirsten working! (: Yaayyy that was good.. but found out some things that bring back my bummed outness hah. Soyeeeah me and Kev eat and I tell him about what's been up lately.. Part of the conversation .. "Man.. did you hear what she said?" "Yeah, I'd be sad if I lost an angel too... HAHA" (referring to me-____-) Little fucker hahah but it was nice of him I GUESS lol. But yeah the food was good! Hahahah. We had our food babies so we just chilled and talked about him and Ken for a bit.. 'cause they're so cuuutee! Then we headed over to Hollywood video and he rented a video game and the guy at the register kept telling us to buy a pickle in a pouch... wtf! Hahaha so yeah we headed down to the park and ran into the incoming juniors! Yaay that was nice to see them.. then headed back to mi casa and printed out some directions to go to the Pomona Inland Valley Humane Society (: It was so nice going there 'cause that's where I got my dog (: I loved seeing all the dogs, they were so cute! It was really sad to think that some of them wouldn't be getting adopted.. and they all looked sad =[ I hope they all find a home soon =[ Mmm.. but yeah then he just took me home aha. Mmm yeaaahhh. It was good finally having one on one time with him.. 'cause the fact he IS my best friend aha and it's been so long and his advice is always reliable and he tells me the shit straight up that I'm doing wrong and right so that's always good. I have so much thinking over to do now.. it's been kinda tough lately.. but my friends are really getting me through it (: And I'm so thankful for each and everyone of them (: I hope everything gets better with all the situations I've been hearing all around.. it's good to have people to relate to y'know? Ahhh well gonna go head over to MoVal for a little party then JoeJam's Grad Party! :D I'm pretty excited.. 'cause I'm probably gonna see the same people from last night lol. YEEE today was actually okay so far (:




_Alyssa

afghjkurlts;

so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much.


"Dude I'm a huuuge fail."
"Dude you're a fucking huuuge fail."

FAIL!!!!!!!! Hahah aww..




_Lyss

I've come to realize

that I'm not the same little teenager from seventh grade anymore. Hah of course right?


Before now.. I'd forget about anything and everything that caused me "emotional pain" lol. But really. And hey, I'm pretty jealous of me back then hah. 'Cause like I said, I'm not the same as I was before. I can tell that some of my emotions lately are taking a toll on a couple of things going on right now. I don't know, I'm not really going to complain because we live and we learn right? But it just feels weird to "care" about the types of things that I'm trippin or whatever about. I'm so tempted to go back and turn things around like I usually did or do, but I know I can't or at least shouldn't. I should have learned to speak up earlier because everything probably would have been better or at least "ended".. Instead of just spilling everything out when things started coming to an "end". End.. hm I don't like that word haha. I guess I'm just not used to things really, reaaally coming to an end. I've always liked to think of it as a "later!!!" hah. I think I'm done with "Oh no, don't worry.. I'll just forget about it tomorrow." phase. Because I know I won't hah. Even if I really want to forget about some things that happened recently.. maybe I'm meant to remember and meant to feel this way. One of my new close friends kept writing in they entry, "meant to be blahblahblaahh meant to be blahblah". (You should know who you are =] ) And everything really is meant to be, God wants us to feel "sadness", God really does have something coming our way in the long run. Therefore.. we should rejoice in our sadness because coming our way might be an amazing happiness because of the gloom we might be feeling at the time.


"It hurts but it may be the only way."




_Alyssa

Approximately

1 3/4th years.



Peace out.



Clean slate though.




_Lees

"Come visit

anytime! Especially before Alyssa decides on which college to go to. (East Coast!)

-Aaron Heredia"

LOL. Don't worry Aaron, I'll be there sooner than you know it. (:

I'm coming back New York.. don't worry (:



_Lyss

FUTURE

I think my parents are considering getting me this for my first car LOL



_Lyss

I'm pretty sure

I'm past the point of being upset with you anymore. You're just really disappointing me now. You swear all the shit you're doing makes you "down" or whatever.. but it really just makes you look dumb ha. You obviously don't care about anything anymore.. making me have the right not to anymore right? Well I don't. You're just provoking me. I was nothing but patient, but now all my patience is gone. You really messed up. You know my morals.. and in order to even keep a friendship with me, you broke it.. you big time fucking messed it up. You pulled an asshole move. I DON'T care anymore. This whole time period was a test.. and all you did was prove me right.




_Alyssa

It's not very nice.. but hey, I REALLY WANT IT! =[[[ Now that it's summer I'd have all the time in the world to play this baby =[ I already learned part of 'Mad' yesterday aha. Aghhhhh is anyone selling one!? =[




_Lysss

GOOD MORNING

Summer 2009 :DDDDD




Gaaahhh man. :D I'm so freaking happy it's summer you have NO idea!! I'm so content with everything right now.. YESSS! My grades are like 30 times better than I expected them to be.. I can still go to college!!! Haha jk. But really yessssssss! I don't have much to worry about anymore (: Mm got to start it off by going to Disneyland with my siblings, cousins and my sister's boyfriend, Jeremy! (: I honestly thought it was gonna be whack but I had SOOO much fun yesterday!! Hahah aww it was priceless. My baby brother's voice is gettting deeper =[ My baby is growing up =[ Really I'm sad haha.. awww =[ Anyways! Saw a whole grip load of people there! Fireworks were nice and Summer Nightastic was freaking amazing! I'm going back soon sooo gyeeahhh (: Hollllaaa when you're going 'cause I have a passss! :D Well my sister does.. but whatever hahahah. Mmm whatta good way to start off summer (: Ahh it felt so good sleeping in today!!! Except for the fact Ric gave me a little wake up call at 5:00 to ask me if I wanted to go to the Obey sale -___- I'm sad I didn't but hey... I got to sleep in! Hahaha I loveee ittt!


OHHHH! This is freaking cute!!!
So yesterday _____ lost ________ Hello Kitty balloon right? And I got a text at 11:30 saying, "So Joanna texts me and tells me to come outside and ______ is standing there with TWO Hello Kitty ballons (:"
(Couldn't reveal some names for certain reasons, sorry! HAHA)

WTHWTHWTH Duuuude that's so freaking cuuuute :DDD I'm jealous. =[ Hahah







_Lyss

CROSS YOUR HEART

(:
Go watch this movie, you'll love it (:




_Lees

(:

Something just made me wanna listen to this song today. Aww but I love and miss this song (: Mmm today was a really really good day and thanks you to the person who made my week :D You really did (: You know who you are hahah. Ahhhh I can't get over it :D Thank you so much! and Again.. sorry mine sucked so much... :( Mm I've never gotten anyhing so niceeee!! Thank you thank you thaaaankkkk youuuu :DDD


P.S. The lead singer looks like my cousin in-law.. I SWEAR!! Freakin' crazzzy!

Yes, KUYA Mike (: We're semi related ahah.
(No audio, saaahhweee =[ )





_Alyssa

Always

thought this was a tight video (: Hah


Mmm I'm gonna go watch myself the LAAAKERS game! :D
I want my freakin' Ariza jersey to come in the mail! =[

"Turned off the Jazz.
Blew up the Rockets.
Ate some Nuggets.
And now we're gonna make Magic disappear. "
-Nati (I refuse to spell it like Naughty hahahah)




_Lees

Good morning!

Mmm what an interesting weeek! (:


Monday-Wednesday was strictly "business" Hahhh. Just 'cause nothing interesting really happened that day. Thursday was the Seniors last day =[ .. That was really saaad.. we took pictures, signed yearbooks.. everytttthhinnng y'knoww. Mama aka Bethany.. signed my yearbook of course and I must say, her entry made me very inspired.. She is such an inspiration to me (: And I'm really gonna miss herrrr! =[ And of course all the other seniors I've made friendships with for the past two years.. Esp. Xtines, Lo, and Cads =[ Then Thursday night was banquet which was really chill and pretty cute just 'cause the music wasn't that poppin but certain people made it cuuute! Hahah yee, jerk sessshh of course up in there ;D Mmhmm.. yesterday was the slowest Friday but we got through it hahah. Then Jamie visited! Good to see her cuteself since she was all dolled up for her presidential initiation at her escuela! Daaaayummnnn! ;D But yeah, then Miah comes to the school to discuss the plans to finally meet THEEE Dennis Nguyen! Hahahah after like 8 months! And it actually worked out (: After coming from Miah's getting ready and what not we drive up to my neighbor see this fly, smiley guy walking around my block hahaha. Aww D is sooo guapo! First encounter hahah.. then we head our way over to Thai BBQ.. Miah's craving of course aha. We talked about his previous girl =/ But I know he only deserves the best of the best.. but yeah Miah can't stop laughing as always! And I just contain it like I always have to nowa days.. I'm pretty good! You should seee ;D Hahaha. But yeah, we head over to Diamond Plaza, but got lost on the way =[ Sorry!, for like 5 seconds thooough hahah, but yeeahh. Popped Dennis' Cue Cherry! Hahahah that was funnn, the pictures will be up soon (: Mmm yeee.. on the way back I got shaaawty ;D and Miah fell asleep in the back and after a bajillion years, I vented out my problems to him like before! And he always give the best advice and made me realize my potential and I only deserve "the best" myself.. so yeah! Hahah it was pretty interesting. Princess Miah wakes up from her slumber and reminds up we're going to Pinkberry.. Miah's choice... hahahahah. We talk in front of Pinkberry and Miah has to go homeee =[ Booo.. so Dennis drops us off at my house where her car is andd we go our seprate ways and I just chilled in my house and just ended falling asleep on my numerous texts.. sorry! Hahah but yeah.. Mm wow Dennis..! He is not what I expected, he is still as sincere and genuine as he was on the phone and texts hahahah unbelievable since nowa days most guys are just all talk and what not hahah. He is a very amazing guy who will most definately get far and will get the hottest, most genuine girl ever to walk on the face of the earth! Hahahah it's definately true thoughh. Mmm yeaup! That was my week! Hahahah and of course another pointless entry to add to my boring life! Yeeeeaah.. DUECES!



_Lyss

So

I'm about to start Christina, Lauren, and Candice's yearbook pages =/ It didn't really hit me 'til now that they won't be there next year.. I mean Candice will be in the same house and Lo will too, and Christina will just be in LA.. but it's not like I get to see them on the daily like I have been for the last two years. They mean so much to me.. probably more than they think. They've always been such sister's to me, knowing what's best for me, helping me out, saying straight up to me what's wrong.. think about it.. not many people can do that. They were they when I came in as a little freshman into choir and it took a while to warm up to each other but when we did.. omg hahah it was insane. I'm pretty nervous to make these pages for them.. cause I know I'll cry hahahah. Gosh.. Words can't even describe how much I love them (: They mean so much to me. I really really really don't want them to leave me =[.




_Lees..

Notte Sento

.

Mmm I love this (: And it's crazy how these are over 4500 STILL shots.

Just thought I should share it (:


_Lyss