Why

am I still awake?! Gossshhh I need to be up in like less than four hours to get up to go to Mountain High. Hopefully we leave later.. probably will hahahah. I'm so excited thouuuughhh =DDD It's been tooo long since I last went =[


Yeah.. I don't know why I'm up.. watching some more of that Floetry stuff.. I used to watch it allll the time hahah.. I guess it's starting back up again. I don't know. I guess it has really made me start to think. Think of what I have, what I don't have, what I want, what I don't want. My goals and dreams. Past times... a lot of my past times actually hah. Yeah.. thinking is pretty bad for me.. especially thinking too much... ESPECIALLY when I'm on my period. HAHAHAH. Ugggghhh man I hate it. And then all I do is like think and complain to myself and assume and blah blah blaaaah. And then I get worried and then realize I shouldn't have been doing those things at all because it was stupid and it was far from what I was even thinking. Listening to these type of things again have made me actually take the time and think about how some of my "hopes" are kinda stupid. I mean they're not stupid... but stupid if I don't speak up... which I'm really bad at. I guess I just have too many high hopes and know that some of them won't be fulfilled... sucks to say.. but it's true and I really need to start realizing that. I don't know.. I guess I just wish someone, something, or Idk just anything could prove me wrong.. Idk maybe just that "One step ahead of you" type thing. But hey! I shouldn't even be dwelling on that right now because .. yeah hah. I don't know. I'm just gonna stop this and actually try to sleep hahah. Hope everyone has a good rest of their break. Goodnight. (:



-LEES