I can't

even remember the last time I've felt like this... it's a great thing, yet so horrible at the same time. I've been praying about it so much but the things I expect to get thrown at me one at a time get thrown at me twice at the same time.. I ask for signs and one comes thinking to myself "okay this is the way" and then the next one comes about five seconds later and both are switched leaving me oblivious to the decision I'm making. I realize the length of one, but really the LENGTH.. leaving me to constantly question myself.. with the help of other instigating it. I know other people shouldn't be there to sway my decisions but I know I shouldn't be stubborn and not listen to it at all. Lately I've been sitting and wondering what I should be doing.. yet, I have no regrets at all and want to keep this ongoing. Maybe.. if you're reading this.. this will help you, help me to make the decision. I'm gonna challenge you to see if you can start this, or do this one last time.




"Testing the waters."




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