Today was pretty good..

Except for the fact that Valdez is a fucking bitch!!! Sorry.. My language hahah.. but really she can go suck a diiiccckk! Gahdayumn. She is super asdfghjkl;! Aghhh.. whatever the rest of the day was fine and that's all that matters.



After school I went to sectionals which was pretty chill and cut short hahah so that's always good. After sex...tionals hahah jk.. I went to class comp -____- 2011 is a mess lordy lory NO BUENO! Ahah but whatever.. I finished my piece throughout the day in like 2 periods or so.. So I'm satisfied! Yeah, we ran over some pieces and then it busted like always 'cause there's so much damn drama.. Then after I went to go watch 2010s and theirs is freaking cute and good and agh I'm so jealous! =[ My fav brotha's/boys are in it.. so maybe that's why I like it so much aha. I love it! Then 2012.. theirs is uber good.. no surprise. 2009 domintes so we don't got shit on them ahaha at allll! Well after I checked out everyone elses.. I decided to go to some freezes/cartwheels in the grass.. I'm getting there (: I can hold a freeze!!!! For like 5 seconds aha. But hey it's cool (: After that I got a little tired so I went to where the seniors practiced and Josh and Ken too! taught us some of the buck piece.. then after a bit Christian showed up and we learned in together since Andre and Gerry were there before us... so yeah.. me and Chris were getting a little frustrated and got it after a while.. Some how we ended up in a V-formation and kept repeatidly doing the dance ahah so it looked like Me, Christian, Gerry, Josh and Andre were a freaking dance crew or something ahaha it was pretty right actually. So we decided to name our crew... Flying V!!!! Ahaha watch out ABDC we're the next big thaaang ;D But yeah me and Christian didn't wanna stop but eventually everyone ended so me, him, Ric and George went to Del Taco, then Waba Grill and actually ate at PFG with RG, Marv and Jason and friends ha. Then went to Con... it was whatevers.. my buds in my class always keep me entertained (: Again.. a horrible school day saved by great company. I don't know how many times I've said this.. but I love my friends so much <333


After a year, Arlen's coming to visit tomorrow :DDDDDDD I'm so excited!!!! ANNDDD I don't have to be at school til like 9:30 - 9:45!!!! Yeaaahhh boyyyy! Tomorrow will definately be a good one (:


P.S. I wish some situations could be better..




_Leesa

Today

was NOT a good day.. like at all hah.



Started off with getting yelled at in the morning.. like always but I'm used to it. First period.. ran like every Monday ahh ha. Next was second period.. felt super long for some reason and I just wasn't feelin the lecture. Then third period choir.. was some sort of a relief.. sang and what not.. but by myself hah felt really lame but it got my mind off things. Fourth period is always no bueno period. Hahaha lunch was pretty good though! Kev asked Ken to prom and I took pictures.. kinda hahahah. But it as super chill and it got my mind off things. Fifth period... don't even get me started!! First BDawg took my phone and I was trying to get it back then Mr. fagget Logan goes "Keep your hands to yourself." And B still didn't give it back! Then Alex throws a paper across the room and at the same time I'm ripping a piece of paper and Mr. Logan thinks it was me!!! And everyone was like wow whatta little dick and Logan says to see him after class -_____- dickassholemothereffer. Pissed me off haha. But I didn't see him after class 'cause he always forgets hahaha. Hmm sixth period was alright.. real chill.. just took a quiz and got sidetracked.. as usual hahah. But then after we had class comp.. what a freakin mess... Hahaha I just reallllly don't like it right now.


But all in all.. I don't know maybe I shouldn't be complaining because I have the greatest friends to fall back on when I'm stressed, discontent, or just not feelin it period. For example I was super stressed over class comp and Kevin calls me over and I thought it was 'cause he was lazy but it turns out he was sharing his food with me... FOR THE FIRST TIME! Hahaha Idk it's good to have a good best friend like it. Oh and at lunch Mr. Giant came out and sat with us hahaha. Then Kaycee is always funny because we're always going through the same shit and she knows wsup and we were ultra pissed today and all she said was "Duuudeee!!! I'M JUST HUNGRY!" It was the cutest/funniest thing hahaha. But it was true, we both were aha. Then 2010s class comp always makes me happy.. All the boys are my favorite (: Then Caitlin.. I don't know she always makes my day better hahahah. Ahhh I don't know what I would do if it weren't for these people. So I guess you can say my bad day turned out pretty well ahaha.


Someone: I just want to apologize for anything.. good or bad emotions I've caused you today or last night. I know whatever happened was for the best.. Even if things don't turn out the way we want them to. Hopefully things can be resolved sometime soon. And how ironic is it that yesterday was one year from like the peak of last year. =/


_Lees

WORD

"I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
Sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
we understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once
in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe.....
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.


I Believe..
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be
done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe..
That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best
time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you When you're down, will be
the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had,
and what you've learned from them.....and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for
your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, if
a friend cries out to you..........you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon."

Dear Alyssa,

How do you put up with this? How do you keep yourself together?







To be honest with you.. I don't.





_AN

Mmm

Today was actually a really good day (: Kaycee came over then Jerms did.. we were supposed to get some things done... "run some errands" but ended up being in my house the whole entire time doing nothing except trying to make each other sing or dance hahahaha. The stupid talks and laughs we had about nothing lasted from about 3:45-9:45 hahahahahahaha! The longest day of nothing turned out to be one of the best.. We found out the Jerms is like a cincothreat hahaha.. he's smart (couldve graduated junior year!), he can dance, sing, play the piano and guitar! It's not fair! Me and Kaycee reached out weird sides and Jerms just sat there laughing. Then Nicole came! And freaking just sat there -_______- but yeah.. Jeremiah is a freaking bombskie song writer.. I'm obsessed with the songs! Hahaha.. mmhmm idk we did a lot.. It was a surprisingly good day :D Ahhh I'm so happy.. next Lo's debut typething! :D



Goodnight! cho hone gane... HAHAHAHAHA


_Lyss

"If

I don't see you tomorrow.. Good morning. Good afternoon. Goodnight" (:

I tried

but I really can't sleep -______-




I'm so restless. It's almost 1 and it's a school night. How exciting.













"Now I remember.."

I miss

Christina Tse =[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[

BEACH

The beach! I'm going to the beaccchhh :DD





One place other than New York I'd love to get away to

(:

What a good day in the hills of Chino. Forreal though ahah. Woke up around 930 telling myself to get ready early but ended up getting outta about at like 10 ahah. The I just kicked it around mi casa and just cooked myself some food and watched some tele. Before you knew it one hour had passed. Couple minutes after 11.. Mara Cae calls ;D Hahahah but yeah we talked for about an hour hahaha. When we got off I took a shower and couldn't really find anything to wear and it was like 1 hahahah! Gosh... totally lagged it. The I get a text from Gerry saying he's gonna go get me soon hahaha so I rushed it.. and then Cait called a little after and said she was at Javys so I took my time ahah. After 10 minutes I was was already and decided to walk down to the park. Watch the boys play ball for a bit and met up with Ger, Cait and Alan. After we walked to Jon's.. seeing that Fujita was already there and waited for Jon then went to Hobs. We got Javy and made our super long walk to Grand Ave park. We finally got there and ran into Maxine, Alyssa, Alex and Stan.. we chatted for a bit and made our way to the hill. The hill was freaking huge! But the view at the top was amazing (: We stopped for a bit to take pictures and then made our way down the other side. We got to this old river bank and Fujita tried to find a route through the bank but moved some rocks and a rattle snake went crazy! Hahaha everyone freaked out and ran up the hill hahahah! But yeah we eventually made our way to DB haha jk nah we turned around and made our way to Maxine's neighborhood. We rested up for a bit and everyone got hungry so we went to On the Run to get Icees and then Subway. We then went to the park and played on the playground for a bit and then on our way out passed through this HUUUGEEE swarm of gnats!!! =[ It was so disgusting. After we made our way up to Cait's house to watch Slumdog Millionaire :D Sucha good movie! I really reccomend it, forreaaall I'm gonna finish it after I get off the computer haha. But yeah, watched a little bit of it and had to go home =[ And now I'm here! Blogging about my long adventurous day.





Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
_Lauryn Hill

I just

read some really cute stuff right now. I can't get over how cute this is! I'm actually kinda tearing up right now HAHAHAH. I don't care if I was being a stalker. Hahahaha.. seriously.. cute shit. Who talks like that anymore?! I didn't think anyone did.. I was proven wrong. I wish someone posted stuff up about me like that, or wrote me little notes or something dayumn! I'm smiling so big right now hahahahah it's like 1:30 in the morning. I feel psychotic or something. Probably because I am.. because I only get like this.. when I'm really jealous -________- Whatever hahahah. Goodmorning.



"Heart, we will forget him!
You an I, tonight!
You may forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done, pray tell me
That I my thoughts may dim;
Haste! lest while you're lagging.
I may remember him!"
_Emily Dickinson

Mmm

yesterday was a really good day.



Started off early going to Target con Miah and buying myself a bathing suit and her some... cough drops -___- then we headed back to her house and she thought she wouldnt have enough gas so she filled up... for the first time!! Hahaha lameskie.. but yeah. After we got reay and picked up Mr. Flores and headed over to RG's McDonald's.. yes his hahahaha and met up with MArv, Kev and RG. They got some food and we headed over to the beach. Me, Miah and Javy realized how crazy of a driver Marv is when we trailed behind him hahah. So we finally got to the Huntington area and went in circles for about 30 minutes.. seriously HAHAH finally found the Lugo kids.. who were really welcoming btw!, and felt pretty awkward hahah. So we set up our things and are met a bajillion people haha. It was pretty tight though (: We played in the water for a bit and played some games. And ran into some homies like Alex, Jon, Josh, and Aileen and some others and chilled with them for a bit. Played in the water so'mo and talked with ourselves hahahah.. And JMar came and we talked to him for a bit and me and JMar went and played in a water for a bit til it got unbearably cold and went back hahahah. We sat and talked about everyone's problems.. mostly Miah's jealously with RG HAHAHAHA. But yeah finally moved to the bonfire pit and when we got all settled in.. I got pooped on =[[[[[ So sad huh? Yeah I cried hahaha just kidding. But yeah, the sun went down and we sang songs.. RG closed with Whisper and then the six us of headed out to the car to go to my sister's. We chilled in the lot for a bit and Aileen locked her keys in her trunk =[ So we talked to her for a bit and left =[ Sahwee.. but yeah we all made our way to the apartment with Marv, RG and Kev trailing behind but eventually made it and were welcomed by my sister in her parking lot. We made our way up the stairs and were greeted by Lucky (: Cutie baby doggie :D But anyways.. we looked around her apartment waiting for the finishing touches of her pasta. So we talked.. and the boys were amazed of her roommates being on "Ned's Declassified" as was I when I found out! She's a celeb.. seriously hahahah. But yeah we said hi to Michelle and then dug in. My sister made some bomb pasta and bread... mmm yummy! I ate and finished but the boys of course got seconds hahah and Miah just eats slow. So I went to go get water and my seat got jacked -___- by Marvs.. but he was eating.. so its okay hahah. RG made the funniest impressions of Miah HAHAHA, Kev taught RG some korean and charmed Michelle with it and they established that the boys were getting an apartment and were making me the maid -_______- but I honestly wouldn't mind.. well the maid part.. but living with them would be so fun (: REalllyyy I love my brotha's so much (: We said our goodbyes and headed home. On the ride home Javy fell asleep to the sounds of Adele and I had to keep Miah awake so we had a talk about my "problems" hah.. but yeah it was good! Yesterday was a great day... I love my friends and the beach and new people and everythinggg! Except for getting pooed on =[ But it's okay. Hahah.. yeah.. there's my great day! This is long and pointless.. BYE!



_Lees.

STFU

=[

"After break..

we're gonna change and you're gonna help me get over this."






ilybilGO.

GRAVITY

Faaahhhhh.The video is so dope and this has always been one of my favorite songs..

I can't

even remember the last time I've felt like this... it's a great thing, yet so horrible at the same time. I've been praying about it so much but the things I expect to get thrown at me one at a time get thrown at me twice at the same time.. I ask for signs and one comes thinking to myself "okay this is the way" and then the next one comes about five seconds later and both are switched leaving me oblivious to the decision I'm making. I realize the length of one, but really the LENGTH.. leaving me to constantly question myself.. with the help of other instigating it. I know other people shouldn't be there to sway my decisions but I know I shouldn't be stubborn and not listen to it at all. Lately I've been sitting and wondering what I should be doing.. yet, I have no regrets at all and want to keep this ongoing. Maybe.. if you're reading this.. this will help you, help me to make the decision. I'm gonna challenge you to see if you can start this, or do this one last time.




"Testing the waters."




_LEES

asdfghjkl;

What the heck is freaking wrong with me?! I always do this and always ruin everything. I'm so stupid. I wish this didn't happen.. I wish I had no brain and I couldn't think. asdfghjkl; =[.








I'm sorry.