"You're inches

from my finger tips,
I've come as close as I can get.
I'm reaching but the rest is up to you."
--Reaching by Jason Reeves

That's a pretty cute asssssss song hahaha... Go listen to it =D Hmmmm... John Legend's new album is pretty bomb! I like most of the songs actualllly. I'm a little late due to the fact it came out a little over a month ago. BUTTTT It's really good =] And the songs are pretty touching... most of 'em! And catchy. I think you should go take a listen to that as well.. Highly recommended =] ANDDDD Christmas is jussst around the corner! And my 'N Sync 'Home for Christmas' CD is fully loaded onto my iPod and has been playing for the past week. Except for the fact Kevin has my iPod tonight! =[[[ My wittle bwaby. Enough of music!


Hmmm.. as of right now. It's pretty bumpy with school, friends, family, boy(s) hahahajk, and other stuff. But I hope that everything will clear up and be good again =] I'm hoping and praying. It's funny... I got huge ass lectures this weekend by two of my closest friends, basically about how stubborn I am and how I need to let go.. Hah. Like that hasn't been mentioned before. I don't know... probably.. to tell you the truth... I'm pretty damn scared. Hella scared of letting myself go to anyone and trusting them... probably just the getting hurt in the end part. I don't know my past experiences just went too quickly and I was just so immature and naive. Well yeah, I still am those things but now have a better knowledge and understanding of what I get myself into. The weird thing is, is that I've really only have been "hurt" once in my life. And it wasn't even because a loss of relationship, but a loss of close/best friendship. I don't know... that was probably one of the biggest losses of a person I've ever had in life so far. Hah well I don't know... but it was just SO HARD for me to lose someone who I really cared about, not even in "that way" anymore.. but giving them so much of me because that person was my best friend and have it taken away in an instant... it sucked. Hahah... I couldn't think of any other word. But really. All because I was so stupid and selfish and so ignorant about losing a friendship because of not speaking up. I've come to realize that containing yourself isn't any better for something to be said all at once all spilled on the table. Because of my stupidity I did not only lose a best friendship of one person, but close friendships for quite sometime. And I can't imagine going through that again... but I know it's part of the living experience ha ha haaaa. As I was told this weekend... " Alyssa, you're pretty damn stubborn. I know you care about this one so much... but you're hiding it and this person has no idea that you SO FCKING SHOW THAT YOU DO!" Hahahahah. I'm too lazy to write anything else... but I AM going to change. 12:37 am 12/1/08.
I made a promise to myself... and my close friend ____ _______ =] Hahah.


A little taste of his amazing, new album =D